Big Wednesday – DivX Version (Normal Quality), iPod/iPhone Version
Uncategorized November 20th, 2009|
IMDB rating: 7.10 Plot: The lives of some California surfers from the early ’60s to the ’70s. |
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I'm feeling worthless for a pretty silly reason!?
well I guess it’s not actually silly to me but….
Basically the only support I get is being seen once every 2 weeks by my key-worker and I struggle but try to survive with that. Last week on the day of my appointment I got a phone call to say she was off sick so I didn’t see her last week. I rang today to see if she was back at work and I was relieved when she was, then she told me she couldn’t fit me in this week as she was so busy and that she could only see me next week on the wednesday which we had coincidentally already booked a few weeks ago. So basically I have no support until next wednesday, had none this week, last week or the week before that!!! Meaning a whole month will have gone in between my appointments. It’s not a big deal for some but my appointments and having regularly is the only thing i have! Please don’t tell me that i am too dependant because an hour every two weeks is not dependant! Never mind now 1 hour in the space of a month!
The reason I feel worthless is because basically if i was worth anything or she actually cared she would have seen me this week after i was left high and dry last week! I know its kind of irrational because its just she is busy but when I feel so low my mind just starts throwing all these awful thoughts out that make me feel worthless!
does anyone else ever feel like this over something they know doesn’t bother most people!?
I don’t know how I am even going to get till next week and its even making me just wanna die, the feelings are that extreme but i know there’s nothing i can do about it.
Aww honey don’t feel worthless! I don’t mean this in a rude way but her appointment schedule is nothing to do with you – SHE was ill, SHE had to rearrange her appts, it’s not because of you, it’s just sadly these things happen. My cousin is a psychologist and tells me that she dreads being off purely because she has to rearrange everyone and disrupt everyone’s routine. I’m sure she hated having to do it, and it must have been a bit hectic for her to rearrange.
Isn’t it a good thing that she didn’t feel that your appt didn’t need to be arranged immediately? It’s not really anything about not caring, I mean, I see my auntie once a year but I still care about her! It sounds like she has faith in you that you will be ok without those few appointments.
Maybe you could bring this up with her next time and you could have a chat about it?
Hope that helps, take care 
xx
P.S. No, you’re not dependant, I used to start going twice a week, then once a week to my counsellor, so once a fortnight is certainly not dependant!
ilovepiano | Nov 17, 2009
looks like u have strong feelings for ur key-worker..by the way what are u being seen for?
standandwork | Nov 16, 2009
Sounds like a good time to pray and never never use the word worthless
JazZz | Nov 16, 2009
Do ur best.
Call ur parents or a relative or somthing. The reason u need that support person is cuz u can’t make ur own pillars of support. Find a friend or smthing, and you’ll gradually feel less of a need for these weekly meetings.
But for the moment, call someone. Fast. People are kind.
DO ur best…
JNB | Nov 16, 2009
It sounds like you have a lot on your chest and it comes as a relief when your key worker comes to visit. Is it possible to find someone you know or trust enough to share some problems with?
Jack | Nov 16, 2009
I don’t think your being irrational. you feel let down, try not to let your thoughts wonder too much it won’t help
catty | Nov 16, 2009
i no its not the best answer but hang in hun, im going through the same thing and have done for years and everything i do in life i balls up or start college or a job but never stick around mainly because of my anxiety and this heightens worse when i tell anyone believe it or not as i start to get even more irrational thoughts of what thay now must be thinking of me ect ect i have 3 children young at heart single mum and a life that is in such a mess but i keep going for my children. Dont no wether you have children but just keep thinking about them.
if not go see your g.p and ask to refere you onto a proffessional body… wast of time explaining anything to a g.p,. that dont have the time to discuss stuff like this . i hope this helps
if you feel you would like to chat then just send mea e-mail. glitzzychick@yahoo.co.uk
blooming lovely | Nov 16, 2009
Could you not go find a new key worker if this one is unrealable???? or try counselling
Pinkywinky | Nov 17, 2009
No it is not silly at all. I have had a similar problems, I went to group councelling and got very upset and even cried at one meeting and didnt feel they gave me alot of help or even comforted me when I cried. I didnt go again but one day when I felt I didnt want to carry on I phoned the Samaritans, I spoke to a really nice man who put a few things into perspective for me. I felt so much better, he said ring anytime of the day or night to speak to someone. They are great. Dont ever give up though, I have kids and I keep going for them. Try to find something in your life that will fulfill whatever you have missing. I had a problem in my relationship but now it is sorted I feel much, much better. Find the root cause and sort that and everything else should work itself out. I also found answers to my problems on Yahoo, its great to know others understand. Good luck
lady S | Nov 17, 2009
